It can an incredibly overwhelming challenge when you’re an adult survivor of childhood abuse to see a way through from Survivor to Thriver. I watched it unfold in my own recovery over the years because I had no mud map imprinted in my brain of the “how to’s” in life.
I understand what it’s like to look at other family’s and think “why didn’t I get that experience?” or “How come they have money and we have to hide the fact that we have none?” To be honest the list can be endless in regards to the questions we ask and often get left unanswered.
We were right!
We were always preparing for the worst and now it’s here. Our fears have been
realized. Did “everyone” tell you were crazy for “catastrophizing” all the time? Did people tell you you were crazy for using so much hand sanitizer and washing your hands? WELL, guess what, fellow traveler, you’ve got this one right!
You sit on your Pedistool, Judging from up high
Looking only at things, from the outside
seeing all ways as bad and too far
never wondering what is buried inside
you don’t see the turmoil
in the mind
you don’t see the scars
covered with pride
you won’t see hurt
buried by time