I AM A LONER WITH THOUSANDS OF FRIENDS. I have always felt alone, but not lonely. This feeling began when I was very young, and it was hard to be with. I didn’t have the tools, the knowledge, or the understanding to articulate the emptiness, so began the titled vision of my aloneness.
My Complex Trauma Story I know the exhausted, confused & alone feelings… Right in the middle of the busyness of life, surrounded by good friends,
My healing journey began in 2016 after a terrible DV incident that changed my life and that of my family’s forever. I was thrown into being a single mum of 4 kids and I started drinking even more heavily than I already did.
I’ve been searching for answers to my depression, which I didn’t believe I even had during my anxiety days, for a very long time. Recently I came into an awareness my brain had significantly healed. I was only able to recognise this for 2 reasons.
Raw & Real: I can’t begin to count how many times I’ve had no idea which way to turn to take my one next step throughout my recovery journey. Then there’s the other side of the coin where I’m moving forward in recovery and BAM! CRASH! I unknowingly spiral downwards and can’t get out of bed for some unknown reason. Frustrating much? Yes!
There are many plateaus and many turning points. Quite a few sliding backward phases, which were super hard to deal with. But the OMG I’VE MADE IT TO THE NEXT STAGE UP, are moments to celebrate.
I want to encourage you to never give up! Being the first generation consciously breaking the generational chains it’s hard work, and worth it.
Raw & Real: One of the best decisions I ever made some years ago now, was to choose to begin to believe the kind things people said about me. I was sitting at my desk, back when I still didn’t have a lot of cognitive functions, and I realised I continuously believed the worst about myself.
Two years ago I came across a list of the signs of Fear of Abandonment. It’s been a journey involving learning how to trust my decisions, learning how to trust my gut instinct and having courage to hold true to my values. It’s been worth it.
Raw and Real: Self discovery of the week, once a flashback occurs, abandonment depression happens, any type of unconscious trigger, the negativity bias of the brain is in play again AND I have to be able to spot it. Once I spot the negativity bias driven thoughts I can then return to being who I am AND pursuing each day with passionate pursuit in my work, my relationships, my life!
I understand. I hear you. I see you. Your Trauma is valid. The impact from past abuse and neglect is alive inside of you today, here, now. I see your struggle to maintain your external sense of togetherness as your internal world wants to crumble. I’ve lived it and I lost it all, twice.
I hear you questioning why can’t I just adult? Why can’t the past just be over and done with? Why can’t I get a good nights sleep? How can I stop this anxiety when it’s “not me?” When will this depression lift? Why do my relationships always end? How can I break this cycle for my children?
Are you ready for the good news? Are you ready to take action? Complex Trauma Recovery is possible, even when you need an individual road map.
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